Some people may find it sudden or maybe weird! So it is. This is not an article if you are thinking it is. It’s a thought. It’s a story. It’s a question. You can interpret it in a lot of ways. I will let you decide that.
Here I am, Writing Again. After a long time, I guess. For Context, I am 24 Years Old and I am really Intelligent and As they say Man of Wisdom. On Top of all, I am a good person, at least that’s what Some People say about me. Not sure about others.
Personally, I doubt everything.
Name anything that you are so sure about and I will make you doubt it.
Yeah! Go Ahead. and I am serious.
I am not that old to say the fancy things about life and guess what it hasn’t been that much time. I am 24, Right. But What I am going to do is share things that I have in mind. It is totally fine if you don’t wanna read it.
It has been some time, around 24 Years, since my birth. A lot of people have trusted me, and I have trusted a lot of people too. A lot of people failed me, also I have failed a lot of people. A lot of people or maybe some people think I am a good person but here is a catch! I don’t know who is a good person.
I will ask you. “Are You a Good Person”, and You have to answer without a doubt or pause that “YES, I Am”. If you are one of those who actually answered that way. I believe you maybe are blessed to be good.
There will be a lot of people who like to make Being Evil a fancy thing, Including me. I have recently been so crazy about being or calling myself Evil.
I think all of us are biased that way. We are all troubled.
I have faced people who say they are bad, I have seen into their eyes. I have seen them thinking that they don’t mean it. They don’t want to be bad, they want to be good.
Maybe that is what we have been trained for, by our society. We all seek to be Good. and Guess what, I highly doubt that we are all that good.
I love a few dialogues a lot. “Nobody is Clean” or “We all have done things that we are not proud of”. and when I think about a lot of these thoughts (which I do very occasionally), I think We all mean it.
The only Difference is some know it, some don’t. Some Accept it and others don’t.
Again, What is the definition of a good person? Can You tell me?
Honestly, I don’t know. I don’t know what a good person should do and don’t. If there is such a thing as a good person, I am out of that shit.
I have seen, I have observed myself, doing and done things that are not good. I have seen myself willing to do good but unable to do so or messing up things more. I have seen myself giving excuses to prove myself to be good. I have seen myself hurting others directly as well as indirectly.
Yes, I can simply say, I didn’t mean it. but it doesn’t make me clean? or Does it?
and When I come out of that bubble of idealism or being good, I find myself in a different place. A Real Place indeed, which is where we are headed to.
Sometimes I think, Maybe We are not just what we do, Maybe we are more than what we do and say. Then what are we?
I try to find answers. I tried.
I said once, “…I see the things I look at. I am a see-er.” I have tried hard to find answers to this question. Maybe It’s not the end of my expedition to find it right now. but Till this moment, there seem to be only questions. All Answers contradict each other. Every Word that I read or listen or hear seems to be contradictory to the other.
For a long time, I love to collect ideas, lines or quotes that great philosophers or authors have said. I like to go deep. I like to grind these quotes until they make sense and then when they don’t make send at all. It’s Like There is this really good quote that contradicts this another really good quote.
The same goes for being good or bad. Here is what happens when you pull yourself out of that bubble. The Bubble that tells you to be good or Bad is Bad or things like that.
If We see our lives clearly, We all are doing plenty of things bad to others every day. It doesn’t only include people.
It doesn’t matter if you know it or don’t know it. It doesn’t matter if you mean it or not. Because You will do things anyway.
I will not motivate to do bad or discourage anyone to do good.
I want us to remember that, Yes, You are a Good Person and Yes, You are a Bad Person too.
We should sit and watch our own self more often, even if you think you are good, or your intentions are good, It doesn’t make you clean. Be Grateful for Whatever you have, Be Sorry for things that are messed up because of you, directly or indirectly. Lets end this here now, Will talk about this side another time.
Finally, Borrowing the Lines of another book, “Good and Bad are two sides of a coin”.
and I think, We all are Coins.
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